im just a little girl =)

=(

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 08:27:09 GMT

im not calm.
i don feel happy.
there is something pulling me back.

thats how im feeling now.
im surprised by the fact that my mood is so easily affect by things happening around me. one day i can feel so peaceful, calm and happy. the next day i can feel terrible. why can't i feel happy and calm all the time?

i know what making me feel unhappy now! i know i need to face it sooner or later and i know i need to resolve the problem. dragging will only lead to a greater problem!

I NEED TO BE MORE DETERMINE!

I CAN DO IT.

ONE MONTH!!!!

updates!

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 08:39:49 GMT

IM GOING TO FINISH MY ASSIGNMENT SOOOOON! (my butt hurts so much from the long hours of sitting down!)

anyway, i haven't been blogging much these days. im lazy! i can't help it.

im think of going away to visit other countries next year (instead of going back to singapore). thinking of going taiwan first and maybe stay there for about 1 or 2 weeks before i fly to japan! i asked elaine if she wants to go with me but she said she is not sure. she don't know if she would have the moolah to go not. actually i don't mind going on my own. everything will be set by me. my own pace, own time and more. i think it will be a good experience too. im still planning. everything is not sure yet. i have to first tell my mother about my plan first.

im exicted about my reach to singapore! im already planning what im going to do after i land! omg. this is so exciting!

ps: my butt stil hurts as im typing this! =/

pps: I NEED TO WEIGH MYSELF! I THINK I GAIN WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 13:08:51 GMT

I'm always amaze by how small little things like a song or a scene in a show can make you feel overwhelmed by emotions.

Its a good thing. Make me feel that there is much more to life than what I perceived. =)

Hi, Melbourne

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 05:21:18 GMT

Yay. My first post since I reached Melbourne! ( I wanted to update my blog yesterday but Mr. Laptop was cranky on me thus no update! )

Everything here is fine I guess. Got to know some new friends and more. Yay, Im not some loner in this BIG CITY ( everything is considered big to me since I used to live in a small red dot! ) Im glad that I went for the First Link Programme which led me to know this Singaporean guy! Three cheers for Singapore! Anyway, his name is Issac, quite a cool guy. Have been hanging around with him and my housemate Syreeta these few days. Lucky for me again, I have such a nice housemate who is willing to tell me stuff which I think I will take forever to know if I need to find out by myself.

Picture time! Some pictures I took while I was at the Perth airport:

Proof to show that Im really at the Perth airport

I landed at their International airport, thus I need to take a bus to their Domestic airport.

The sky here is like ....OMG! Pretty

Super expensive and not really nice roll!

And so ( after another 4 hours and 1 hour car ride ) I finally reached my place. A lot of drama happened on my way from Perth to Melbourne. Like losing my boarding pass, not being able to contact my landlord to let me into the house etc.... Lucky, everything went well eventually. Sooo, this is my room --->

Dinner time! I made cabbage rolls! ( I somehow suspect its what cause me to have diarrhoea! )

More stuff happened to me! Im just being me, Angel. I think people who knows me knows I do funny stuff which can get me into trouble sometimes. I shall post pictures of my "burned" fingers next time!

our world

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 17:17:21 GMT

Its 12.50 am now!

Im still awake! Watching Solitary now! Its super nice- its a show about where 8 people go into a room and each test their own limit.

I was watching the news just now. Heard about the news whereby a 22 year old japanese man rammed a truck into a crowd of shoppers, jmped out and went on a stabbing spree in Tokyo's top electronics district today, killing at least seven people and wounding 10 others! Omg! After all the natural disasters that happened all around the world, this stupid guy who got tired of living just went into this stabbing frenzy and add on to the number of dead people in the world! What the hell! Furthermore, one of the people who got killed is just 19! Thats my age! I so can't imagaine myself dead at 19!

Enough of all these!

Today ( or should I say yesterday) is so not my day!

First, I woke up late for church. Had to take a cab to church and spent $9.80 on it where I could just spent less than $2 if I took the train. As I was late for church, I had to attend the service without EATING. If you if me well, this (not eating before a talk, service, lecture) is UNACCEPTABLE! I nearly died! After service, talked to a few uncles and aunties. Ate lunch with my Gugu.

Then, I took bus 55 ( was going to my mother's shop ). Wanted to get the deposit and cash for my auntie from my mother so I can tranfer the money for my future accomodation. I only remembered that BANKS OR WHAT SO EVER MEDIUM I NEED TO GO WHEN I TRANSFER THE MONEY IS CCCCLLLLLLOOOOOOSEEEEEE (close). =(

Went back home! My bad luck continues!

Wanted to wash my clothes since don't know when. So I decided to wash my clothes today!

( Time passsssss.... )

Took out my clothes.... To my horror!!!!!!! My white clothes ( 3 pieces to be exact) became PINK clothes!!!!! OMG!!! What the hell!! FUCKFUCKFUCK!
Bleaching my clothes now!
Lets hope they turn WHITE again! =)

Oh ya, it doesn't help that my laptop gives me troubles too!! =((

Argh!

My remaining days in Singapore

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 14:56:11 GMT

29 may 2008: Reach Singapore at 10.45pm
30 may 2008: Meet Mother
31 may 2008: Met up with the gang -->Go Timbre (Ate super duper thin pizza and got a little high on alcohol)
1 june 2008: Stayed at home
2 june 2008: Met up with the gang -->Had dinner at Food Republic -->Went to eat Yami (Broke a Table in the process)
3 june 2008: Medical checkup from 10 to 12 plus --> Met Elaine and ate chicken rice --> Met my mother at Yishun --> Go meet Timon and Elaine again to catch Sex and the City --> Went to my aunty's shop to collect laptop
4 june 2008: Met up with Peiyi --> Cut my hair
5 june 2008: Met part of the gang at Bukit Timah --> Ate at the Curry Wok --> Ate ice cream( something like Cold Stone)
6 june 2008: Went to the Discovery Centre with Elaine --> Watched three movies (The Great North, Sharks and Kungfu Panda) --> Ate at IKEA
7 june 2008: Met my mother --> Went to Novena to buy quite alot of things --> almost met up with Shengzhi, Elaine and don know who -->Went to my Aunty's shop again --> Print out things and bought my air ticket ( Confirm leaving on 8 July 2008 )
8 june 2008: Went to church --> Ate lunch with my Aunt --> Went to my mother's shop (only to realise Post Office don't open on Sunday! Damn it! Wasted trip! ) --> Went home (more unlucky things happened: blogged )
9 june 2008: Met up with my mother at amk --> Transfered money for accomodation ( service fee is bloody expensive! $135 Sing Dollar! ) --> Made my way to PEiyi's house to scan all the documents ( Left one of them there ) --> Elaine called --> Took train to Dobhy Ghuat to meet up with the rest ( mainly Sheng zhi, Elaine and Timothy ) --> Played Team Fortress ( I think thats what its called! ) --> Went home.
10 june 2008: Met up with Elaine to watch Narnia (saw the guys on my way to buy ice cream!) --> Ended up walking with Hyun to The Cathay ( The rest don't want to walk aith us =( ) --> After movie ( which was super nice ps: Alex is HOT! ) went to meet the rest and played Team Fortress again ( My team won! =D ) --> All were hungry so we head to PS to eat --> Chat about stupid stuff ( sorry timon ) --> Went home
11 june 2008: Met up with Steph and Kahming --> Went to the supermarket to get food and drinks --> Took a bus to Steph's place --> Started making korean sushi ( First time! not bad! ) --> Head to Steph's rrom to eat and drink ( Alcohol! ) --> Drank ate and play games ( In the process, Kahming got drunk! ) --> Waited for Kahming to puke finish, clear up the place abit then took a bus to Novena station --> Went home!
12 june 2008: Met up with the usual gang ( W/o Hyunjae ) again at Clarke Quay ( Decided to wear my black heels; it was so close to killing me! ) --> Ate Ramen at Central ( Shared with Elaine, very niceeee =D ) -->Wanted to go and get haato ice cream but stopped by Gobi and got dessert there ( Still went to get my Haato ice cream! ) --> Went to the Clinic ( Drink so called shots from a jab; its only a mouthful yet it cost $50 for 6 "mouthful" ) --> Decided to go and try smoking sisha ( Don't know the spelling. Anyway, its water smoke ) --> Did alot of funny stuff there ( Should be my first and last time trying sisha i think! Not healthy! ) --> Went home!
13 june 2008:( ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH ) Anyway, my day started off with a bad note! ( Bloody period; literally BLOODY! ) --> Woke up at 7.30AM!!! --> Had to wash my bedsheets and more --> Waited for time to pass so I can make my way to meet the gang --> Reached Boon Lay SUPER EARLY! ( I was the first to reached! ) --> Eventually everyone reached and we went to the foodcourt to eat ( Edit: Today was 8 instead of the usual 7; mel's bf, amos was here! ) --> Made our way to the Singapore Discovery Centre --> Played paintball ( I was hit!!! Left me a mark! How sweet! ) --> Naph, Mel and Amos left first --> Ate with the remaining gang ( MOS Burger ) --> Sheng also caused me and Elaine to stone him! --> Went home --> Clean up the house.
14 june 2008: Met up with Josh and Lynn ( Lynn was super late! haha. supposed to meet at 12 but she woke up late! ) --> Left me and Josh walking around Novena while waiting for Lynn to reach --> Ate lunch at a Korean restaurent at Square 2 --> Chit chat with the both of them --> Suddenly decided on meeting the rest of the Truth class on 5th July to eat at Brazil ( MEAT BUFFET + DINNER = FAT! ) --> Josh left first for his cell group --> Walked around Novena again with Lynn to kill time --> Both of us parted -> Helped out at my mother's shop
15 june 2008: Woke up at 11 am to catch "my show" --> Daddy came by early (Supposed to meet at one instead of 12pm ) --> Finished my show --> Bathe and went out for lunch with my daddy and brother --> Ate alot! --> Daddy sent me to Ang Mo Kio --> Read comics to kill time before going over to help my mother
16 june 2008: Going to meet the gang for dinner (without Hyun as he is in Malaysia AGAIN. Whats with koreans and Malaysia? haha) --> Went out at around 2.30pm --> Wanted to get a black basic top to match my skirt but my hair!!!... --> Can't stand my hair so i decided to look for a cap instead of getting my top! --> Walked to a lot ( i meant A LOT ) of places hunting for a decent cheap cap --> Eventually settled for a cap from 77 streets ( ewwww, thats so secondary school! ha! i had no choice =/ ) --> Wanted to walk from Orchard to City hall ( But decided against that idea) --> Reached there early --> The rest reach ( Without Sheng this time; he said don wait for him as he had something on last minute. Doesn't this indicate that he is coming later? which he did not.. ) --> Ate at Canelle ( I hope i spell it correctly ) --> Shared crab pasta with Elaine ( The bloody pasta was so small! ) --> Proceed to Max Brenner to eat dessert ( Its okay only ) --
> Elaine and I wanted more savoury stuff --> Went to Suntec to eat pasta ( Again! ) --> Went home
17 june 2008: Woke up real late! ( 1.18pm ) --> Met up with Mother --> She transfered money to me ( for my studies ) --> Read comics --> Bought lots of food ( From Amk all the way to Yishun ) --> Went home and watched tv!
18 june 2008: ( ITS LADIES NIGHT! ) Supposed to meet the girls at 9.30 but i was still at home at 8.45pm! --> Rushed out and msged them telling them that i was be super late --> Everyone reached --> Decided against taking a cab as there were so many ppl waiting for one yet i don see any! --> Walked out to the main road and decided to take a bus! --> Damn! we should have followed the guy in black to go Zouk! (Naph knows what i meant!) --> Finally reached Zouk! --> While Mel was searching for her friends, I saw Eby ( Funny thing is he recognised me! Wah! After so long! ) --> Mel found her friends --> We bought 2 jugs of drink at only $52 ( Cheap!) --> Drank --> Wanted to go toilet with Mel but it was too full so we went to the dance floor instead ( No link! ) --> Dance abit and went back to find the rest. Managed to pull them down to the dance floor! --> Stared dancing! Super fun la! the guy was so funny! ( Exclude those people who bloddy stepped on my feet and those that were fighting space with me! ) --> Left Zouk quite early --> Took cab to eat prata ( Was having stomach ache! Empty stomach + Alcohol = Pain! ) --> Went back to Mel's house and slp ( Which i did not! nvm! )
19 june 2008: ( Team fortress day! ) Need to clean up my house before meeting the rest --> Went out early as i need to get something --> Walked all the way from Orchard toDobhy Ghuat ( I really took my own sweet time to alk but still reach there quite early! ) --> Met up with Elaine first --> Then Timon and Hyun came alon --> Ordered and ate first ( No energy caused me to eat super slowly! ) --> As Mel haven reached yet, we decided to play first --> Played abit then Mel and Amos came --> We ( Me and ELaine gave up our seats! =( haha ) --> Played again ( Changed seats ) --> As we ( Me, Elaine and Darell ) end half and hour earlier than them, we decided not to wait for them and go Ps --> Wanted to play drums but ate at Toast Box instead --> Crapped a lot as we made our way to the station and on the journey home
20 june 2008: ( IM LEAVING IN 18! DAYS ) Was supposed to meet Kailyn and Steph for dinner BUT... Stupid Cheeming told him last minute that I only can meet him today otherwise need to wait till next sat which i wont be free --> Mum came home and get a little cleaning before we went out and have tea --> Met up with Cheeming and Yanwen at Somerset --> Heard that Simon was coming too but was super late! --> We ended up watching Sholin Girl ( Simon wanted to watch Zohan ) --> STUPID MOVIE! hate it! --> Ate dinner at Shokudo ( Simon's treat! Thanks! ) But it wan't nice! i didn even finish my food! --> Went home!
21 june 2008: Its the day im supposed to go for my pre departure talk --> I woke up quite early to make my way to idp --> Actually i was a little late when i reached Orchard --> Quicky buy some food and drinks and took a bus to idp --> While i was on the bus, i took out the invitation to check to timing again and to my horror!!!! I looked up and saw the venue! ITS AT ORCHARD HOTEL! Where the hell would i know where is Orchard Hotel! --> In the end, I didn't make it to the talk! =( --> Walked around Orchard for quite some time until Steph called me to meet her at United Square --> We sat in Starbucks and talked about A LOT of things --> Decided to eat korean food ( Read that there is some korean town in Bukit Timah ) --> Walked from United Square to Bukit Timah Road --> Took bus 66 to the place but we came down before our stop --> Thus, we had to walk under the stupid hot sun --> Couldn't find the place ( I swear we combed the whole area! ) --> Finally found the restaurant! ( Its located at Bukit Timah Plaze! ) --> Ate Bimbibap and Kimchi soup ( Loved the soup! ) --> Went to Mac to eat ice cream ( Only i ate! ) --> Went home!
22 june 2008: Wen to Mum's shop in the afternoon --> Wanted to have lunch with her but she was too busy --> So i decided to go eat myself --> Reached the place where i wantd to have my luch at but it was close!!!!! --> Went back to my Mum's shop to have duck rice! --> Took a bus 147 to Chinatown ( My mum lied! She told me it was very near! Was not! ) -->Reached Chinatown --> Walked around People's Park Centre asking for the exchange rate! --> Exchange money ( $500 plus Sin to $400 AUD ) --> Wanted to eat Hatto but i ran out of time as i was going to meet Elaine! --> Met up with Elaine ( We wanted to watch Get Smart at 5.10pm but it was selling fast thus we ended up watching the 7.10pm show! ) --> Ate dinner --> Watched movie! ( Very funny! ) --> Went home!
23 june 2008: Peiyi came to my house --> Love her as she bought frozen yoghurt for me! Yay! Thanks! --> We made our way to Innova ( Yuck! ) --> Wasted trip again! Damn it! --> Went to Vivo City next! to eat at the Mussel Guy! --> The mussels were super! --> Peiyi had to leave for her tuition --> I was left walking around Vivo --> Went back home!
24 june 2008: (Darell's bday!) Met up with Blackie (Louis) and Elaine for lunch ( Thanks for the treat! ) --> Met Naph and Mel to shop for Darell's present afterwards --> Mel and Naph left --> Me and Elaine went to catch The Hulk! ( Nice! ) --> Went home
25 june 2008: Stayed at home =)
26 june 2008: ( Zoo day! =D ) Woke up early to go to Mom's shop --> Went to CitiBank to help my Mum bank in some $$ --> Met up with the rest --> Took a bus to zoo! ( Super long ride! i almost pee on my pants! Hyun didn't help much by repeatedly saying we haven't reach yet! ) --> Reached the Zoo ( Pee time! ) --> Walked around! (We spilt into two grps; long story ) --> In the end, it was left with me, Hyun and Elaine ( Spilted into another grp; Lazy to type out the reason why! ) --> Met up with the rest --> Took a bus to Amk hub to have our dinner! ( YAY! Thanks Darell for part of the treat! ) --> Went to NTUC to buy stuff --> Went home
27 june 2008: Stayed at home! =)
28 june 2008: Met up with yi gugu and gugu for lunch ( Ate at Waraku de Pasta! Not bad! super small portion! ) --> Went to shop around before my brother left for work! --> Left with me, yigugu and gugu ( Went to somewhere to sit down and have a drink --> We parted! --> I went to Suntec to buy stuff --> Walked all the way from City hall to Orchard! ( Exercise! =D ) --> Walked around! --> Went home!
29 june 2008: Stayed at home! =)
30 june 2008: Was supposed to meet Darell at 1.30pm but Wong msged me the night before to ask me to go to a shopping mission with her --> Met Wong earrrly in the morning! (10am!) --> Wentaround Orchard searching for the things we like --> Bought sales items --> Had lunch at Mos burger! ( Ithink thats the last time im going to eat Mos burger before i leave! ) --> Went off to meet Darell --> Met him at the arcade --> Played and stayed there for don know how long --> Went down to Basement 1 to eat Sake Buffet --> Went home
1 july 2008: Met Elaine and Naph at 1.30pm to do our eye brows at Orchard --> Made our way to Far East Plaze --> Received a call from Wong ( She asked me to transfer money to her as she was super broke! ) --> Went upstairs to do our brows ( BLOODY PAINFUL! ) --> Ate at Gelara (NICE!!! YUMYUM) --> Wanted to burn off some calories thus we ended up walking to dhoby ghuat to meet the guys (W/o Sheng) --> Played lan for an hour or so -->Hyun left --> Went to Hans at Park Mall to have our dinner! (YUMYUM AGAIN!) --> Went home!
2 july 2008: Met up with Elaine, Naph, Timon and Hyun to go Naph's house --> Took a bus there --> Reached her house! (Bloody nice and super big! oh! im so jealous!) --> Waited for Mel to come before making our way down to the pool --> Me, Mel and Naph swam while timon went gyming and Hyun and Elaine sat there and do i don know what! --> Bath and went to Holland V to have our dinner ( I almost straved to death! no kidding! ) --> Took and cab (W hyun and timon ) home
3 july 2008: ( MY DAY! ) Met up with my Mum at AMK HUb --> Ate Mos burger (Opps! Error! this is my last time eating Mos! ) --> We went up to take Neoprint (First time! WOO! ) --> WEnt to meet the rest --> Waited for everyone to come --> Ate at hong kong cafe before taking neoprint --> Watched Hancock! (NIce) --> Naph left ( Mel left before we watched the movie! ) --> Ate at Bakerzin --> Went to Coffee Club to talk --> Took a wrong bus to Plaze Sin --> Didn do much there --> Went home
4 july 2008: Met up with Jc friends --> Ate at Swensen! (YUMMMY) --> Went to take Neoprint (Stupid mistake! so sad! choose wrong amount! ) --> Cheryl, Huikai and Ahzirah left --> Walked around Orchard with Wong --> Went home
5 july 2008
6 july 2008
7 july 2008
8 july 2008: Flying off to Australia!

More to come!

feeling much better today =)

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 17:09:17 GMT

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I'm feeling much better today! Thank God! I was totally feeling emo the day before! I did some (little as compared to Timon) thinking yesterday! Not bad at all! I was thinking about how i felt about myself in the past. I used to feel bad about my presence. As i grew up and know more people, I think this feeling got stronger. Lucky for me, maybe I did too much thinking when i was little, I began to start thinking lesser as I grow up. I shall view this as a blessing. Sometimes too much of a thing might not be a good thing at all! =)

Met up with the gang on Sat. Realised there are so much things going on. I don think all these things/ problems can be solved easily.I think we really need to find a place and just sit down and talk. Maybe timon is right, it cant just always be "fun". Come to think of it we rarely talked about anything serious. In th past, I definitely won't talk about anything serious with them. But I think our group has been through alot (one year cold war and more...). I'm actually ready to be more open with them. Lets hope we can have this talk soon!

missing

Fri, 30 May 2008 16:39:47 GMT

Just got back from Taiwan last night. Landed on small Singapore at 10.45pm to be precise!

Anyway I was thinking about thinking during my first few days in Taiwan. Okay, I think its quite hard to get me now. I was wondering since there are so much thing going on my life; be it things or events that happened in the past or are going to happen in the future, I need to start thinking about my life. But after trying for a few days I have no idea how to start or what to think about. I have always been like that. My mind is empty almost 90% of the times. Is it a good sign? I don know. I don like this at all. =(

Even though I'm always not thinking, I still can feel and I know that there is something missing in my life. My heart feels (abit) empty and messy!

Am I pms-ing right now?

=((

empty!

Fooood~!

Mon, 05 May 2008 14:35:04 GMT

Im thinking of what Im going to eat tomorrow! Exciting!

Heard that Timon got into an accident! Don know if its bad not. Anyway, get well soon! Emo guy!

lets sing the word "HOT" together

Sat, 03 May 2008 11:50:31 GMT

I Swear Global Warming Is Taking Its Effect In Singapore!

Someone Please Save Us!

1st Code of the day: im melting!

2nd code of the day: how?! im still melting!

last code of the day: (melted)

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Anyway, met up with Elaine EARLY (10.30am) in the morning! Went to IDP only to find out its close! I forgot thatt it close every first sat of the month! BOO! But..... Lucky us! Someone who works there allow us to go in and fil up the application forms! Sweet, love ya. But I somehow think the older lady is scolding us in a very nice way! Hack care! Nothing much happen after that.

I think I created alot of trouble today! :(

Suppose to meet Mel and the rest for dinner tomorrow! But... I cant make it! Sad! Need to help out at my mother's store! How i wish my mother will just phone me and say that I don need to go! YAY! (Im dreaming!) Ya. So, Mel said if the rest with they are okay with meeting in the afternoon. Then everyone (almost) was like isnt it suppose to be at night... change of plan?? and so... Hai! I also don know la!

ps: TODAY IS SUPER HOT

pps: I think Im getting fatter =(

I cant handle change!

Fri, 02 May 2008 14:01:55 GMT

I have decided to start writing a journal. Hope I can view all these when I'm older. Erm, how should i start off.

Okay. First, I have just received my 2 offer letter from University of Tasmania and Curtin Techonology University. Im still waiting for the offer letter from Deakin University. I'm also going to apply for another university! University of Canberra! Looked through its website and the accomodation, it seems quite good. Not bad at all! Worth considering. Going to meet Elaine tomorrow to apply! Anyway, today is the start of the notification period ( I have no idea what is it called ). Not really placing a lot of hope in getting a reply from NUS or NTU!

Met up with Kailyn and Steph today for dinner! Not bad! We had tepanyaki for dinner! Talked alot. Kailyn was saying about the problems she faced with Lynn. Actually, Im not very close to Lynn to actually judge her. But i believe what Kailyn said was quite true! Steph was also telling us how much shangeok changed! Its actually quite scary to see how fast/rapid a person can change! Im quite happy the people around me stay true to themselves after all these years! Can you imagine a person changing to another person within such a short period of time? I cant imagine! I think Steph made a choice in leaving her group.

Omg, there is so much I want to say but i don think i can fit everything into one post! I shall leave the rest for the next time! Going to watch channel U 10pm show now!